DO YOU SEE THE CRACK ON MY MAC?

HEARTBROKEN….

SECOND WIND

like the phoenix, i am ready to stand and rise from the dead
ready to continue the battle.
re-ignited by the flames of love and power
my joy is to shower you with inspiration.

thank you great mentor for waking me up.
thank you for shedding light amidst the heavy smoke.
it is an honor to carry on and lead this pack
for glory awaits this mission.

let us not be deluded that the lost of sun is also the lost of our strength
let us not be tricked by the noise of the guns.
let us be reminded of our own sanity.
i am a born leader, and greatness is my blood.

i fly high on this second wind
with a more intense fire on my wings
fueled by passion we shall rise beyond the war
and as one troop, towards victory.

lift off

have you ever experience a lift off?
it is the most exciting part of the plane ride as it actually runs a tremendous speed that everything is a blur..
and as your adrenalin simultaneously matches the speed of the plane, slowly and gradually..without you knowing it…
your flying…

this is what is happening now. amidst the craziness of this job called master juggling…i feel this sense of excitement..and fear at the same time…i am excited because the vision gets closer much faster…i fear that we might crash…

control is what i need. and to do this, it takes a huge amount of wisdom and maturity. i need to know the right things to do at the right time. a lot is dependent on me…and i just can’t afford to lose my grip.

kalyeng bituka ng manok

hoy ikaw…salamat…kc muntikan nako mahulog…dito sa kanal…alam mo ba…na dati, nahulog ako dito…bata pa ako nun eh..kala ko mamamatay nako..kc diba maliit palang ako nun..so nung nahulog ako..hanggang dibdib ko yung lubog…buti nalang nakaahon ako…pero ngayon..natalisod nanaman ako…at ikaw ang kasama ako…gabangin ang lalim nya…at kalahati na ng katawan ko ang nakasabit…buti nalang…

naisip ko…bakit kc dito pako sa delikadong rutang ito dumadaan…bakit ba na dito ako napdpad? ginusto ko ba dumaan dito? o dahil wala akong pamasahe para sa luxury train dun sa kabilang kalsada…naisip ko..dahil ba sa tingin ko, sabi ng nanay ko nuon, ang lebel ko ay para sa makitid na kalsada lang…ewan ko ba…dito ako lumaki eh..edi ito lang ang alam ko..

pero kahit na ilang beses ko ulit ulitin sa utak ko kung gusto ko bang lumihis sa biyaheng ito…naisip ko mashadong delikado..e pucha, binababa ko palang yung paa ko, nagasgas na tuhod ko…grabeh, nakakatakot..kakainin ako ng buhay hindi ko nalang namamalayan…hindi ko kaya yun…siguro ang tapang ko ay hanggang sa utak ko nalang…

tama na tong kalokohan na to…10 taon narin naman akong namalagi dito…humalakhak, umiyak, nasiraan ng bait…eto ang buhay ko…eto ang pagkatao ko…eto ang lahat lahat sa akin…tatakpan ko ang tenga ko para tumigil na tong umuugong sa utak ko…

salamat tlaga ulit…